On 31 August 2008, sister Jesme left the congregation of Mother of Carmel. The authorities' repeated attempts to have her declared insane, she says, left her no other option. This book, a first of its kind in India, is an outpouring of her experiences as a nun for thirty three years.
Searing, sincere and sensitive, Amen is a plea for a reformation of the church and comes at
On 31 August 2008, sister Jesme left the congregation of Mother of Carmel. The authorities' repeated attempts to have her declared insane, she says, left her no other option. This book, a first of its kind in India, is an outpouring of her experiences as a nun for thirty three years.
Searing, sincere and sensitive, Amen is a plea for a reformation of the church and comes at a time of its growing concern about nuns and priests. It affirms Jesme's unbroken spirit and faith in Jesus and the Church, living like a nun but outside the Four Walls of the Convent.
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There are 2 sides to Amen. First is, how is Amen as an entertainment medium and second is the subject matter. And although it’s difficult to separate the two, I have to make that distinction here.
Amen is an autobiography of a nun, something that’s very apparent from the name. Sister Jesme, born in 1956, realized that she wanted to spend her life in service to Jesus when she was in her late teens. She completed all those courses and compulsory tests that you are supposed to do if you want to beco
There are 2 sides to Amen. First is, how is Amen as an entertainment medium and second is the subject matter. And although it’s difficult to separate the two, I have to make that distinction here.
Amen is an autobiography of a nun, something that’s very apparent from the name. Sister Jesme, born in 1956, realized that she wanted to spend her life in service to Jesus when she was in her late teens. She completed all those courses and compulsory tests that you are supposed to do if you want to become a nun, for years and years apparently.
After joining the Church as a nun, she realizes that things are not like she thought they would be. In her book she mentions that homosexuality is very common in the Church and those who don’t reciprocate the senior sisters advances have to face the consequences. Sister Jesme was forced into a homo relationship with a sister and although everyone knew about it they did not object. In fact they encouraged her to co-operate for their peace of mind. She also states examples where a few priests are involved in sexual relationships with the nuns. She also tells us that corruption is very common in schools and colleges run by the church. They ask for donations and many sisters harbor petty jealousies against other sisters.
Sister Jesme was very outspoken on various issues such as donations among others which led to some of the senior sisters turning against her. They perceived her as a threat. She gives a lot of examples and incidents to prove the point. After some years, when she becomes the principle of a college, they try to remove her from the post by falsely accusing her of wrong doings. When that is unsuccessful, they try to get her admitted to a mental hospital and start treatments on her. Finally, she has enough and leaves the Congregation and goes into hiding. She is afraid that they will force her to come back and eventually prove that she is mentally unstable.
The press comes to know about it and they question the congregation. They tell them that she is mentally unstable. That’s when sister Jesme comes out with the truth.
This book is one more embarrassment to the Catholic Church in Kerala along with the string of incidents that splashed on South Indian newspapers recently. There was a Sister Abhaya Murder case in which two Catholic priests and a nun were arrested and the suicide case of a nun who was made to do all the chores in the convent and in the night she was sexually harassed by the head of the convent.
I don’t know if anything happened after this book was released but there is one thing that Sister Jesme mentions in the epilogue which was really disgusting and something that is not expected from a religious body.
“The church also brings out a bimonthly called the Truth. In march issue, X, no. 2, the editor himself has done a cover story about me with the heading –Amen: The Autobiography of Sr Jesme: The confession of a prostitute). The cover carries a photograph of my body, across which are plastered my references to sex in the book, taken out of context.”
All I can say is that whatever be her personal reasons for writing the book I feel it was necessary. A few corrupt priests and nuns should not be allowed to corrupt the entire church system. For those who think this book is against the church and all the holy nuns, let me tell you it isn’t. It’s against corruption and a few bad people. I hope the church instead of denying the charges and accusations, try to find out the guilty and make it safe for others.
Now onto the point about how entertaining was the book. Honestly it was boring. I couldn’t bring myself to read it after about 100 pages. But I finished it because I wanted to know what happened. The writing style is very novice and like reading history notes or something. One incident blends into the other and before you try and understand what happened you are pulled into an entirely non-related incident. I literally had to slog through it.
Sorry Sister Jesme, but I think you should have co-written it with another author. This book was first released in Malayalam although it was originally written in English. The Malayalam version was an instant hit and went to it’s third printing in the first month itself.
Woah…that was some review, wasn’t it? I’m surprised if you reached this far.
Conclusion: Skip it. Read the news and Google the reviews. Time is too precious.
When I finished reading the book, the first thought that came to my mind was “This is possible. In fact, I am sure this happens.” We are dealing with Human Beings and therefore, we are dealing with human emotions as they are experienced by people regardless of the environment in which they live. I found the book shocking in pieces and not so shocking with some other details. Places of worship, regardless of the religion, are places that are run by Human Beings. They have feelings and they all ne
When I finished reading the book, the first thought that came to my mind was “This is possible. In fact, I am sure this happens.” We are dealing with Human Beings and therefore, we are dealing with human emotions as they are experienced by people regardless of the environment in which they live. I found the book shocking in pieces and not so shocking with some other details. Places of worship, regardless of the religion, are places that are run by Human Beings. They have feelings and they all need an outlet to express those feelings. It would be very difficult to ignore them. The book essentially revolves around the theme of “Human emotions” and the impact of human emotions on their own behavior.
Human mind works differently on several occasions. The book comes across as honest but slips into research mode at times. Half way through, I felt as if I was reading a report. The book keeps on reporting incidents after incidents. The book goes further and also articulates the side effects of those incidents on Sister Jesme. While that might be perfectly okay, the book drags in pace at places where such incidents are reported. It does not seen to have a good flow.
I must say that her approach of teaching has been very innovative and courageous. In India, with a large percentage of illiteracy, it is imperative to adopt innovative approaches to facilitating education, especially when it comes to teaching others to read and write. In India, we want teachers who offer freedom to their pupils and allow them to learn things on their own.
The politics, the red tapism in institutions such as churches, etc., are not new to readers, I hope. Wherever there are people, there would be politics. A church is no exception to that. The book also talks exclusively about such politics, red tapism. A sense of helplessness prevailed in Sister Jesme’s writing as I read those chapters that detailed incidents of political nature.
Read the book for it offers an insight into the world of Nuns and of course, for the bravery of Sister Jesme. Applaud her for her courage of conviction and confidence. Hats off to you Sister Jesme. If you are reading this, please do respond. I would like to exchange notes with you.
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It's revelation that one hardly expects to know. She is sincere about putting her problems that authority seemingly ignores like corruption and homosexuality. Church should not function like it used to be in 7the century......Good book to know more about life inside convent.
Blame me for expecting something explosive. This was nothing more than the long rant of a disgruntled employee. The fact that she was a nun is just an added bonus. As a saying goes, if there's a devil residing in the roof of every normal household, there's a devil residing in each rafter in a convent. A house full of women where everyone is everyone's mother-in-law and daughter-in-law, the stuff Ekta Kapoor's dreams are made of. And the poor husband, Jesus Christ, looks a
Turning water into whine
Blame me for expecting something explosive. This was nothing more than the long rant of a disgruntled employee. The fact that she was a nun is just an added bonus. As a saying goes, if there's a devil residing in the roof of every normal household, there's a devil residing in each rafter in a convent. A house full of women where everyone is everyone's mother-in-law and daughter-in-law, the stuff Ekta Kapoor's dreams are made of. And the poor husband, Jesus Christ, looks at the drama from above helplessly and shakes his head in despair. And no, divorcing him isn't as easy as divorcing a human husband. A Convent, Hotel California. Same thing.
Sr. Jesme is a PhD in English, but this book reads like a ten year old's What I Did During My Summer Vacation essay.It is written in present tense , a flashback while she's on the train as a fugitive, just about to hand over her resignation. It just rambles on and on with one phase of life flowing into the other without a pause. There are too many references to Provincials and Generalities and church specific bureaucracy without saying which one was which or whether they were the same person throughout the book. Almost ten words on every page were within quotes, like why should ' plus two' be within quotes when referring to plus two students.
Sr. Jesme or maybe she's back to Memy now, paints herself as the goodiest of goody two shoes that ever walked the earth. Barring a single faltering in the room with a priest. She is goodness personified. She is a socialist who mingles with the lower strata of kitchen nuns freely, she is a liberal who watches movies and makes movies, she is so honest that she is the only one who stands up against capitation fee, she is the saviour of poor students, she's so Jesuslike that she always shows the other cheek. She's so everything that she actually deserves a YoSrJesmeSo set of jokes.
Agreed. The rot inside the church runs deep. You have corruption, sexual liaisons, petty jealousies, politics that will put our parliamentarians to shame, mind games , rampant sexism, racism and good old simple hate. She herself seems to have been victim to a 'special love' with another nun and almost succumbed to the advances of a priest. But I somehow am not able to bring myself to blindly believe her version of all the events in this book. Why would she be forced to take psychiatric treatment if there wasn't something that made the rest of the congregation believe she needed help? There must be something more to that part of the story, especially that incident being the breaking point that made her leave the congregation. But hey, who am I to judge. If she's happy now, free from the shackles of the Convent, good for her. I must Google for some follow ups about her life.
Where most of the books found in South India speak flawlessly of a perfect world where rock solid foundation of Christianity is sparkling and blissful combination of peace and joy, here comes a book that shakes the very foundation to its roots. From the slippery slope of sexual exploitation to the rocky roads of systematic corruption and abject racism, comes a book that is a sum total of thirty three years of facing the reality behind the iron dark walls of the Christian self proclaimed Infallib
Where most of the books found in South India speak flawlessly of a perfect world where rock solid foundation of Christianity is sparkling and blissful combination of peace and joy, here comes a book that shakes the very foundation to its roots. From the slippery slope of sexual exploitation to the rocky roads of systematic corruption and abject racism, comes a book that is a sum total of thirty three years of facing the reality behind the iron dark walls of the Christian self proclaimed Infallible World.
The only drawback to this book as to why I do not recommend it is the repeated self belief and connection to every event to the will of Christ. So where you expect an intelligent read, you are bombarded with paragraphs and paragraphs of praise and worship to a nun's belief. I mean I ask myself - couldn't you come out with two versions of this book and have one version only dedicated to making the story to the point without all this religious vociferousness?
Overall, read it only if you are looking for a true and shocking perspective over-spiced with too much of religious statements all around.
Heartbreaking but nothing stunning..it only gives an insider's account of church and congregation, most of which is already guessed and known partially to the outside world, thanks to media reports. However, one has to give the credit to Sr Jesme for not only openly speaking about it but also for showing the courage to write an autobiography. Though, a sensitive piece of writing, at times, Sr Jesme seems to be a little too sensitive about things. I do not doubt her attempt to be open and honest
Heartbreaking but nothing stunning..it only gives an insider's account of church and congregation, most of which is already guessed and known partially to the outside world, thanks to media reports. However, one has to give the credit to Sr Jesme for not only openly speaking about it but also for showing the courage to write an autobiography. Though, a sensitive piece of writing, at times, Sr Jesme seems to be a little too sensitive about things. I do not doubt her attempt to be open and honest about her experiences but I do certainly feel that the accounts are biased. Anyways, the book is worth a single (quick) casual read as not much will stay with you (to ponder over) after you are finished.
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As suggested by a friend, this book did tell me about how missionary functions but it as the title says, just an autobiography. The book is written well enough to tell its reader that what happens in the closets of the church.
Though through this book, I started to like Sister Jesme and her courage.
You already know what is happening inside the monasteries, ashrams and other so called "religious" institutions.
So for an average Indian the book gives no shocks. You will definitely appreciate the sincerity of the author and any sensible person can understand that nothing in the book is made up.
A very brave and daring attempt by a nun to throw light on the darkest corners of the catholic church. Similar stories will surely occur in any major religion, much in contrast to professed tenets and beliefs of the same. Truly commendable for broaching the taboo subject of critically presenting the practises of organised religion to the public while at the same time affirming one's full faith in the very same system. But becomes slightly tiring for the reader to go through passages that repeate
A very brave and daring attempt by a nun to throw light on the darkest corners of the catholic church. Similar stories will surely occur in any major religion, much in contrast to professed tenets and beliefs of the same. Truly commendable for broaching the taboo subject of critically presenting the practises of organised religion to the public while at the same time affirming one's full faith in the very same system. But becomes slightly tiring for the reader to go through passages that repeatedly reaffirm the author's faith in her religion and God. The language and prose style somehow failed to evoke any strong outrage in me, whereas the content surely did...
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On the front cover of AMEN(atleast in the one I have) you notice a line on the top, it starts with the words, 'a taboo breaking.........'. It is definitely so and is may be 'certainly' the first-of-its-kind in India, but it tells what you wanted to hear. It is an eye opener of sorts when you read about corruption, neopotism, and sexual harassment inside the congregation, but is not all honest to the core is a kind of feeling one might have. Amen has its moments no doubt especially where sr Jesme
On the front cover of AMEN(atleast in the one I have) you notice a line on the top, it starts with the words, 'a taboo breaking.........'. It is definitely so and is may be 'certainly' the first-of-its-kind in India, but it tells what you wanted to hear. It is an eye opener of sorts when you read about corruption, neopotism, and sexual harassment inside the congregation, but is not all honest to the core is a kind of feeling one might have. Amen has its moments no doubt especially where sr Jesme talks about the movies and documentries. However her conversation with Jesus seems a little 'haywire' if not totally irrational. Amen could be called more like 'the autobiography of a super-nun'. It is, to sum up, an ok read.
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Always been sceptical of the Church and the life it forces its own to live, but reading this was still disturbing - to know how petty, and small-minded and un-interested in God the Church can be.
And I know Sister Jesme is an M.Phil, PhD and all, but the book could probably have done with better editing. The structure was hard to follow and the narrative jumps from one event to the next. It was hard keeping track of which college she was at and who the main sisters were.
Amen a book written by sister Jesme in which she writes about the sexual harassments by the priests and closet homosexuality within nun ranks. Sister Jesme, 52, who was the Principal of St Mary’s College, Thrissur, till last August when she quit the Congregation of Mother.
She has disclosed the “dirty secrets” of the Church administration. How, under the hood of nun-hood and priest-hood, and the entire celibacy thing, sexual harrassment and abuse is rampant
This book is a simple, straightforward and what I believe to be honest, look at what goes on behind the secret walls of convents and churches. The book gives the author a chance to talk about her side of the story and while doing so, she has shown that for all the vows and the prayers and the respect society heaps on them, many priests and nuns are just like most normal people.
One of the most boring books i have ever read. The topic is interesting, but she writes about the interesting parts in only a few lines and the boring mundane parts in excruciating details. And it's all written in bad English. She seems like a nice lady, but she should never be allowed to write a book ever again.
not so well written but makes up by effort. an insight into the innards of the church. stuff u probably suspected but never sure about. in insight why would i be surprised. these scandals break out every now and then about some religious order or the other.
It is an amazing book with amazing revelations. Not many have the courage to take on the establishment and very few have the articulation to convey an experience as traumatic as the one described, so graphically