The autobiography of this Irish soccer player is not a football story but a human story that goes from a hard, hidden childhood in Dublin’s orphanages to a public struggle with alcoholism and a life lived on the edge of chaos.
Paperback
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464 pages
Published
October 24th 2006
by Century
(first published 2006)
This is remarkable. For those of you who don’t know, Paul McGrath played at centre back for Manchester United and Aston Villa in the 80’s and 90’s, and for Ireland at numerous international tournaments in the same period. At the 1990 World Cup, he was voted into the team of the tournament. Whilst playing for Villa, he was voted supporters’ player of the year four years running, and PFA Footballer of the Year in 1997. McGrath was one of the best players of his generation, someone who made the gam
This is remarkable. For those of you who don’t know, Paul McGrath played at centre back for Manchester United and Aston Villa in the 80’s and 90’s, and for Ireland at numerous international tournaments in the same period. At the 1990 World Cup, he was voted into the team of the tournament. Whilst playing for Villa, he was voted supporters’ player of the year four years running, and PFA Footballer of the Year in 1997. McGrath was one of the best players of his generation, someone who made the game look easy. This is his autobiography.
But it’s no ordinary autobiography because McGrath reveals – in excruciating detail – the extent of the alcoholism that has scarred his adult life. From the dependency on tranquilisers as a ‘safe’ alternative to booze at the end of his career, to drinking a bottle of Domestos at home after just having retired, McGrath probably should be dead by now. The fact that he isn't, and was able to play professional sport to such a high level whilst hopelessly addicted to alcohol, is truly extraordinary. Throughout his career, McGrath regularly went on benders that ended up with him going missing for days, unable to recall why, for instance, he had woken up in a caravan on a beach in Wales, or face down in the gutter surrounded by down and outs. Various managers and players attempted to literally barricade McGrath into hotel rooms to stop him drinking, sometimes leading him to shin down drainpipes to escape.
It all began in Manchester, where McGrath would regularly drink with Bryan Robson and Norman Whiteside from the end of training on a Tuesday into the early hours of Wednesday morning. This was a time when football in England hadn’t yet embraced the continental trappings of a healthy diet and not drinking for 12 hours straight. But alcoholics don’t drink like other people. And Paul McGrath had more baggage than most.
Because the most striking thing about this book is not the tales of surreptitiously drinking, or the (admittedly occasional) games McGrath played whilst completely pissed, but the first section of the book. Paul McGrath was an orphan, institutionalised from a young age, although his mother was still alive (she couldn’t look after him but still raised a severely disabled daughter). To compound things, McGrath is of mixed race. So on top of rampant feelings of fear and betrayal, throw racism into the mix and it’s not surprising that McGrath grows up with such low self-esteem that only by drinking can he lose the panic attacks and sense of inner worthlessness. Even now, he finds queuing up in the supermarket a nerve-wracking experience.
The book works so well because, as well as McGrath’s perspective, each chapter is layered with the views of the people in McGrath’s life; from managers and physios (McGrath was notorious for having bad knees which required constant attention between matches) to friends and family. And the impression is enforced that Paul McGrath is a shy and extremely vulnerable man in the grip of a horribly vicious circle of self-abuse. He’s no saint, and his drinking has destroyed two marriages as well as betrayed the trust of dozens of friends and colleagues, but people have stuck with him because they could see the man beneath. Or rather, the child beneath. There is a sense throughout that McGrath was indulged for two reasons: firstly, he made the teams he played for much, much better; and two, people felt the need to look after him.
It’s an amazingly honest account, and after finishing it I wondered how Paul McGrath is today (it was written in 2006). Not every ex-sportsman can become a pundit, or go into coaching, and they don’t tend to run pubs anymore (that would be a bad idea in McGrath's case anyway). One ex-footballer, Dean Windass, recently admitted to attempting suicide soon after retiring from the game. So, I wish McGrath well. And I hope that the writing of this book helped him to understand more why he drinks, and opened the door to getting better.
I knew Paul McGrath had a reputation, but never really realized his situation was as bad as it was. I was maybe too young to see the issues he had at the time, but reading the book, I can relate to a number of issues Paul explains, as my old man had a similar background growing up and ended up dying due to alcohol abuse.
It is a great insight into the mind of the person with the problem, which I never had before as my old man was a closed book, so to speak.
A great read and Paul seems a great guy.
I knew Paul McGrath had a reputation, but never really realized his situation was as bad as it was. I was maybe too young to see the issues he had at the time, but reading the book, I can relate to a number of issues Paul explains, as my old man had a similar background growing up and ended up dying due to alcohol abuse.
It is a great insight into the mind of the person with the problem, which I never had before as my old man was a closed book, so to speak.
A great read and Paul seems a great guy. Hope he can be well. Also a great footballer, if managed to be fully fit would defo have played at the very top level, Serie A at the time.
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I was aware of Paul McGrath's reputation before I picked this book up: great footballer, but a drink problem which was never deeply hidden.
Anyone (I hope) would admire his unflinching and candid writing here. There are no attempts to gloss over the dreadful things that happened and no excuses provided.
I was unaware of his troubled background and childhood before I started reading, and that part of the book makes for particularly uncomfortable reading, but these are tales from a dark and differen
I was aware of Paul McGrath's reputation before I picked this book up: great footballer, but a drink problem which was never deeply hidden.
Anyone (I hope) would admire his unflinching and candid writing here. There are no attempts to gloss over the dreadful things that happened and no excuses provided.
I was unaware of his troubled background and childhood before I started reading, and that part of the book makes for particularly uncomfortable reading, but these are tales from a dark and different era.
Despite the apparent deficient childhood, Paul doesn't apportion blame or regret, merely reflects on what could have been and what he did enjoy growing up like that. Such an attitude seems remarkable, but at no point does it feel like a "poor me" sob story, just a stoical approach to a childhood few could understand and comprehend.
Aside from the obvious tales of alcohol, there are some witty and insightful tales of the explosion of football as the Sky money tumbled into it. There are lots of anecdotes about the different methods employed by different managers, the growth of player power and the drinking culture behind some of the great players.
You don't need to be a football fan to enjoy this, simply have an interest in other people's lives, how they cope with adversity and deal with a problem that will never leave them.
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From the beginning i knew that this book will receive five stars. At first, when i saw the cover i thought that maybe this will not be my cup of tea because to be honest i m not a big fan of soccer so i hoped that this will not be a description of his game tactics or something like that but this was great story that kept me interested the whole time. This book is about him struggling with alcohol, problems in relationship and of course his football career. Nice reading.
i met Paul recently and had my copy signed. For any Irish patriot this guy is amazing i person as portrayed in the autobiography. Going from a steel worker to being world famous professional footballer woth many demons in his closet...this is a tough read should you try put yourself in his shoes but definitely well worth a read for every football fan.
An extraordinary memoir, one of the most painfully honest I have ever read. So honest it's difficult to read at times. Who should read this ? Anyone who is Irish and has ever kicked a ball for pleasure or watched people kick a ball for pleasure, that's who.
An in-depth account of Paul McGrath's life as well as his football career. He was a beast on the football pitch, but his life off it was not as successful. Very interesting, but suffers due to being poorly ghostwritten.
awesome story - read and re-read this book over and over again
i am an aston villa fan and he is a legend on the field and a troubled man off it
i cry every time i read it
so so honest
The amazing life story of one of my heroes growing up. Very harrowing and amazing what he achieved once you learn about his history. A must-read for any football fans.
Despite being a massive football fans I rarely read football books, particularly biogs, as they are rarely insightful or interesting. That said I was motivated to read McGrath’s autobiography as I knew he had a story beyond there mere world of football. I just didn’t realise how much of a story he had to tell!
From day one his story is compelling, tragic and unique. I mean, how many kids at an orphanage get to spend weekends with their mum? I was aware that he was an alcoholic and that he’d even
Despite being a massive football fans I rarely read football books, particularly biogs, as they are rarely insightful or interesting. That said I was motivated to read McGrath’s autobiography as I knew he had a story beyond there mere world of football. I just didn’t realise how much of a story he had to tell!
From day one his story is compelling, tragic and unique. I mean, how many kids at an orphanage get to spend weekends with their mum? I was aware that he was an alcoholic and that he’d even tried to kill himself on two occasions, so was surprised to read he tried it a half dozen times.
The story paints the picture of a deeply flawed, yet charming genius (as only applied to football) who everyone likes during the periods he can remain sober. The fact that he managed to play football to the level he did is astounding.
However, it’s shocking the lack of help he received. Even people like Ron Atkinson who helped McGrath’s career did nothing to really try and sort out the underlying problems. McGrath was helped to cover up his indiscretions and falls from grace, which while helpful, did nothing to help him confront his issues. Not once did they sit him down, tell him to take a season off at a clinic and get him self sober because there was too much pragmatic self interest. Just patch him up, keep him away from the press and make sure he’s ready for the big game next week.
I found a lot of the book to be revealing as many of these stories did not make the press prior to publication. However, I would have liked to have known more about his family circumstances with his wife and kids as the book mainly concentrates (understandably) on the football side of things.
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As a fan of Derby County, and as Paul McGrath played for us during the latter stages of his football career, I was particularly interested to read this book. The personal problems the player suffered are very well documented here and given he was such a wonderfully gifted footballer, I couldn't help but wonder how much more he could have achieved all things being equal. It wasn't an easy read but written with a searing honesty.
Along with the bio on Clough, and Adams autobio, this is one of the best soccer books you could pick up. A remarkable life, a remarkably candid account of McGrath's greatness, his vulnerability, his (by his own admission) stupidity. But one thing we must never do is judge him, because few of us ever really understand alcoholism. If I've one criticism it's that the life account is not chronological and I think with sportsmen it needs to be so that their rise and fall can be followed more easily.
Along with the bio on Clough, and Adams autobio, this is one of the best soccer books you could pick up. A remarkable life, a remarkably candid account of McGrath's greatness, his vulnerability, his (by his own admission) stupidity. But one thing we must never do is judge him, because few of us ever really understand alcoholism. If I've one criticism it's that the life account is not chronological and I think with sportsmen it needs to be so that their rise and fall can be followed more easily. However, that's a minor gripe on an excellent book. Highly recommended.
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One of the best footie autobiographies I've read to date.. amazing and detailed insight into this footballer growing up and the trials and tribulations of dealing with everyday life and what being a professional footballer brings with it.. If you only ever read one football autobiography then this is the one I'd recommend you read!
Paul McGrath - Unwanted child, extremely tough upbringing, international footballer, hopeless alcoholic; a human tale detailing the life of Paul McGrath up til he retired from playing football. The book recounts both his football highs, his alcoholic binges and makes the reader sympathise with him and wonder how he played so well at a high level for so long. A candid account telling how he was most courageous for 90 mins per week and yet he was devoid of any courage to face his (not inconsiderab
Paul McGrath - Unwanted child, extremely tough upbringing, international footballer, hopeless alcoholic; a human tale detailing the life of Paul McGrath up til he retired from playing football. The book recounts both his football highs, his alcoholic binges and makes the reader sympathise with him and wonder how he played so well at a high level for so long. A candid account telling how he was most courageous for 90 mins per week and yet he was devoid of any courage to face his (not inconsiderable) demons for the remainder of any given week.
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I read this book at Christmas. I found it very depressing in parts and felt sorry for paul for the terrible time that he endured in the Orphanage in Dublin in the early part of his life. I didn't realise that he was injured during the Ireland V Italy game in the Giants Stadium in New York. Great Player..
One of my favourite autobiographies. Many Birmingham City fans won't read this because of who he is. But I really enjoyed this as there was a story behind it.
He was & still is a hero in the stands at Villa Park & in this book he didn't hold back with what he went through & the demons he had to face.
A great player, but a story of his life that is just incredible.A well written autobiography that brought a grown man to tears. As a Villa fan I loved the great Paul McGrath but never knew the hardship he had suffered. It is a story that just has to be read.
Recommends it for:
Alcoholics and anyone from Dun Laoghaire
The man they called God.. Frightening, nearly put me off the drink. The bits from his youth are especially good/feckin tragic. He's from the same place as me and the descriptions of the places and heads are spot on.
Excellent. Paul McGrath was a great footballer, but he battled severe drinking problems. We learn a lot about his childhood in orhanages and how it was growing up as the only black person that people knew.
What a boozehound. Sip on a double Domestos with a splash of Southern Comfort, while you savour this sobering tale of Paul McGrath, the unhinged football legend.